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Every Other Year I Go to Heaven

Every other year I go to heaven.

At the end of summer, first week in September after a year of preparations, I drive with some friends to La Honda into the big redwood trees. A deep happy takes me over, I turn my radio on to hard rock and roll, singing as I go on highway number one along the ocean.

The “blue beast” was smoky colored this time. She does clear up after a while, the sea fog still lazy to move, but then morphs into that azure blue. The ocean!

“Whooohoo!” I cry as if my car was a fast horse.

What a blessing it is to be alive now, and to have the privilege to produce a gathering of like minded women. The International Goddess Festival draws all kinds of women come from all over the world. This year we had especially focused on the “Girl Goddesses”, from infants to teens. They are the most vulnerable to the constant messaging of female beauty and how we should be girls/women.

One seven year old little girl was asked what would she ask the Goddess and she said, “I wish for a flat stomach.” At seven they have already made her drink the poisoned cool aid. She was flat as a board all around.

Governed by feminist values, we practice sisterhood in friendships, and rituals. We bed down into our cabins, our nest for the weekend. Birdsong replaces the sound of cars. Redwood paths absorbs the sound of our footfalls.

For a witch this is pretty close to paradise.

Stolen moments of bliss from the jaws of a relentless bitter woman-hating patriarchy.

Z in ritual 2014

I had done something very unusual, which was unplanned. I was invited to Brazil to help celebrate the 10th anniversary of the Goddess Movement there. I felt honored to be invited to be the keynote speaker.

I was not yet quite unpacked from my European tour in the Spring, to Germany and Austria, so I just added more cloths and my jewelry to my suitcase for Brazil.

What I had seen there in San Paolo was the ideal fertile ground to sew seeds for the Dianic tradition. There was a pagan priest already into his tenth year honoring annually the Goddess by all her names, Yemaya, Isis, Diana, etc. He has written 14 books of Wicca with the emphasis on the Holy Mother. He created the Global Goddess Day (September 7th) which was celebrated by many countries by being visible on the streets, in the parks, in halls, etc. In other words, showing openly our devotion to the female principle of the Universe. His name is Claudiney Pietro, a young man in his second destiny.

I was thinking and feeling my way into the collective mood. The women were very active around him. He treats women with respect, as well as his mother who was also present. If and when a women’s circle would emerge, he would protect them so they can find their own voice and space to grow. Not lead them, but make sure they have their own space.

Back in the days, I had to fight for every gathering; got arrested for circling in Malibu on land owned by Iran. An other time again because somebody called the police that “they had seen flickering lights on the mountaintop”. Now 45 years later, down in South America things would turn out easier.

I thought I am here, lets ordain the first Kouretes. Let Claudiney receive an honor from my hands as the Elder of the Dianic tradition. Acknowledge him as a Priest of the Goddess; a Kouretes. (Chapter 5 in the “Holy Book Of Women’s Mysteries” detailed already what this means.) I felt blessed that I found a real priest already created, already proven to be our brother.

The last day of my presence in San Paulo in the afternoon, we gathered his friends. I still had some powerful Sage from California. I still had a couple of Katas left over from Germany, these are white raw silk scarves given in honor of somebody’s elevation. I also had my traditional red yarn, used for women for their sacred girdle. I still had my Tibetan bells with the most perfect E sound.

With a variation on the traditional ordination for women, I have now created an ordination ritual for our Kouretes.

As I was purifying Claudiney with the White Sage, a fleeting thought shot through my mind. “Oh they are going to roll me over the hot coals for this one!” This was the first whiff of trouble that awaited me at home, but I let go of it. I remembered rather the good luck, to find a man at all who so deeply qualifies. I have waited 50 years for this occasion. To be able to find a brother I can trust.

Z Budapest Blessing Prieto

I wound his throat with the red yarn, the mother line, to make his voice stronger, his hands to continue to work the Goddess culture, the blessings and the rituals his group was performing. Then I blessed him to be a Kouretes.

We felt very good about it all. Took pictures. His mother wept and so did I.

We both posted our good news on Facebook, I little later then him. It took two days to get back to the States. Then, I needed at least a week to totally recuperate from the grueling travel; I am 74 years old.

Then I remembered my second ordained daughter, whom I love and shared many memories with. We go back to the seventies. A sister Aquarian. Predictably she blew her top. I felt too weak to fight with her, so I tried to soften what happened. I withheld the information about the ordination, called it a “Big Official Blessing”, which it was.

No, I didn’t create a Kouretes who can teach Women’s Mysteries. Of Course NOT! He is a man, he has to continue what he has been doing, just protect the women’s group if and when it would emerge. Just make sure they have safe space to gather.

Of course there were many questions I could not answer. She called me a liar. And then she announced to the world on Facebook that she is no longer following in my footsteps, because I broke the big Dianic rule… No men!

Half a century went by and we kept our tradition of NO MEN ALLOWED.

Faithfully, I have taken a lot of flack for it. I was called man-hater, and anti-transsexual. You name it, the men didn’t trust me. Often they sabotaged our productions when we had to hire them in out of town venues.

But under all these attacks, we had each other. We knew if we gave up Women’s Mysteries, women once again would have nothing. No Goddess; women become spiritual orphans, the killing of our souls.

But now I felt times had changed. Maybe with Claudiney we will find more brothers under his leadership. We do need our male children. Its not natural that the mothers and their children are at war with each other.

In spite of the sad realities, a woman dies every second of childbirth on the planet. We have no wealth, own very little, and the whore politicians have been all bought up by big corporations who essentially destroyed our fragile democracy.

But this will change. The men will get tired of warring. The women are already tired of dying.

It still hurts that I was so misunderstood, and that this act of vision costs me some of my friends. But I think I was moved from within. It was what the Crone in me decided.

It doesn’t mean that now all my ordained daughters can ordain men to be Kouretes. No Way!

Its often a temptation to elevate the one you love, but its NOT a Dianic custom. Nobody should try to ordain men just because I found a worthy one. This is a big deal, but its not for all. I think Claudiney will know if and when he may elevate an other man. It should be him who decides.

So please don’t say things that I heard that this is a Dianic civil war.

It is conflict, the Goddess of Discord has descended on us. But out of this conflict growth will follow. Growth of more Dianic groups, Men’s Mysteries can finally emerge, and all those who like to spin accusations know I am still a visionary. I have walked the walk a long time. I paid my dues. Wrote all the books and popularized Women’s Mysteries for five decades. And my inner divine guide was right to take the opportunity and open up the door to Kouretes to return. We have very high standards, some will qualify.

The many unanswered questions now have time to work it out. We don’t need to know ahead of time everything. Time has a way to spin things out according to what the Fates dictate. Don’t push the river of Time. Just wait and recognize the important moments as they come along.

Be present and don’t forget to love.

Z Budapest


Practical Mysticism

Practical Mysticism with Dr. Z Budapest, a master class on leadership, deepening circle skills and ethics.

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In the Red Crone’s Temple of Women’s Mysteries we deep dive into practices that open us to the inherent source of vast wisdom within. We connect with the bliss of devotion and with the Spirit in our hearts, utterly wild and free. We align with the dignity and grace of the feminine warrior, and we touch infinite compassion, silence and beauty beyond measure.

The basis for all spiritual exploration in our Women’s Temple group is the insight of that which we long for… is who we already are. Thus our practice is not towards a goal of attainment in the future, it is a process of melting, of unraveling the wisdom and beauty already inherent in each woman. And there is no more powerful place to do that then in a circle of conscious women.

We do it together. And together we evoke real awakening, transformation that lasts — Goddess spiritual practice becomes a life style. We all contribute in co-creating an aura of the Great Mother, which again provides each sister with a powerful transmission of grace and awakening. It holds us as we dive deeper into the essence and pure beauty of who we are.

In the Women’s Red Culture we talk, we eat, we dance, we pray, we melt with our innermost beauty and with each other, as we tap into authentic spiritual connection.

Instead of enforcing the status quo by focusing on our problems and personal shortcomings, this Women’s Temple group practices connect us with truth beyond our fears and limited self-images.

The Red Crone’s Temple of Women’s Mysteries is a space where we come to mirror, celebrate and empower each other. A space where we can drop our masks, and let the beauty of our authentic face be seen in all its glory, pain, passion and vulnerability.

In this training, you will learn the art of Womanist Leadership and all the how-to’s of facilitating an ongoing Women’s Temple group. You will gain insights into the background theory of women’s group dynamics as well as have the opportunity to practice Womanist Leadership and to receive constructive feedback.

The principles of Feminist Leadership can be applied to all areas of life; so even if you are not sure if you want to lead a group, this training will benefit you. You will have an in-depth experience of the ground breaking Wise Women approach and of the benefits of being part of a Women’s Temple group.

Topics we will cover include:

  • How to set and communicate the right intention for the group.
  • How to create a safe and deep framework for the group.
  • How to honor the flow of the group as well as keeping the focus and depth.
  • The being/doing dynamic of Feminist Leadership.
  • Pitfalls of Women’s groups.
  • In depth study and background theory of Women’s Mysteries and much, much more.

The learning process is a carefully balanced mix of theory and experiential transformation.

Many of the practices are dynamic and interactive (e.g dance, dyads, respectful touch), but we will also spend time in silence and inner contemplation.

You will leave the training with a plan for creating your own group, or if you already are part of one, you will bring back ideas of how you can deepen your practice together. It is even wonderful to come as a group, as the training will give you a common ground of understanding for what you will create together.

This training is for Women:

  • Feeling called to awaken and embody Feminist brilliance, for real.
  • Wanting to explore Feminist Leadership and learn the art of leading a Women’s Temple Group.
  • Who want to rejuvenate and have a deep dive into Feminist spiritual practices.
  • You will gather an abundance of tools and insights into what Woman’s Spirituality is while reconnecting with the softness and radiant glow of your whole body and being.

You will leave this Training with:

  • Total revitalization of body, mind, and heart.
  • Deepened intimacy with all that is sacred, within and around you.
  • A clear connection to your own feminine essence and inner guidance.
  • An empowered understanding of how to live Goddess Leadership in all aspects of life.
  • An undeniable sense of being connected with all things.
  • A deeper sense of purpose in work, relationship, and life.
  • Inner peace, self-acceptance, and compassion for yourself and others.
  • Skills to start and sustain a Women’s Temple group.
  • A firmly claimed seat in a both global and timeless circle of conscious women.

The training is facilitated by Dr. Zsuzsanna Budapest, founder of the Women’s Spirituality Movement, and some sessions will include leadership by members of the Susan B. Anthony Coven Number One team.

Location is in Santa Cruz County and details are given after registration. Limited to 20 in-person attendees. Online attendees unlimted.

Voice of the Goddess Contest

Voice of the Goddess Contest

goddess festivalTo celebrate the first harvest and the abundance our Great Mother Goddess provides, the women of Susan B. Anthony Coven #1 are excited to sponsor a new contest that illuminates and honors the unique power of Women’s Mysteries!

How it works

Send your photo and short essay of up to 500 words describing how celebrating Women’s Mysteries has changed your life to: goddess_speaks@yahoo.com. Qualified entries will be posted as tagged photos to the SBA facebook page. You, your friends, and family can vote for your favorites until midnight August 12, then Z Budapest will select the 1st place winner herself on August 15 from the top 3 vote winners.

Goddess Prizes

  • 1st place: Attend the Goddess Festival FREE!
  • Runners up: $150 off Goddess Festival and a FREE copy of Z’s latest book, “Goddess Gets to Work”
  • All entrants: $25 off Goddess Festival


Prizes do not include travel expenses and all entrants must qualify for participation in the Goddess Festival. Prizes may not be applied to previously purchased tickets, but previously purchased tickets may be transferred to other qualified participants. By submitting your photo and essay for consideration, you agree that you are the author and have necessary rights to grant the Susan B. Anthony Coven #1, Women’s Spirituality Forum, and Goddess Festival permission to use, reproduce, display, and transmit them so that your thoughtful insights may inspire as may women as possible. For full terms and conditions, visit: http://goddess-festival.com/terms-conditions/. To learn more about the Goddess Festival, visit http://goddess-festival.com/.

Photo: “Mezzo Goddess - We sing our dreams into being"
Acrylic painting by Emily Balivet, 2008 (http://www.emilybalivet.com/)

A Religion of Her Own

A happy and prosperous springtime to you! This is our annual fundraiser letter for the Women’s Spirituality Forum.Let’s talk about the origins of March 8th our big internationally acknowledged Holyday of Women on Earth; International Women’s Day.

In 1857, the garment and textile workers of the United Sates organized themselves into a political movement. What woke up the Sleeping Giant… the women’s collective consciousness that time?

It was the devastating fire in a sweatshop in New York. The fire broke out, but there were no fire escapes. The doors were locked. The women started jumping out of the windows and died on the streets. Hundreds of women died, adults and children workers alike.

This infuriated the American women and men. From this time on it was law to have fire escapes on all buildings in the City. This was the first step to organize the Labor Movement and to set safety measures in place.

As Dianics, we remember this big fire every year and say a prayer for those who lost their lives in it.

Big fire going on now, but on a religious level. This is the political fire… backlash fire disguised as Christian values. It is also the old gender wars. Men talking smack against women. The Rush Limbaugh mentality is the voice of the Republican Party, which is anti-choice; gross to women yet pro-porn.

I am quoting Bob Cesca from the Huffington Post:

Well before these new laws were introduced, including the personhood laws dictating that life begins at conception and therefore outlawing many forms of birth control, hundreds of women across the country were convicted and sent to prison because they had miscarriages. More than 300 women in South Carolina. 40 women in Alabama. Illinois prosecuted a woman for manslaughter after she gave birth to a stillborn baby. As of June, 38 states had passed “fetal homicide” laws. The consequences? Pregnant women who are suffering from drug addiction or mental illnesses are afraid to seek prenatal medical attention for fear of being arrested. It’s increasingly evident that being pregnant and in distress is almost as bad as being an illegal immigrant in America. 

Not a single male god religion came to the defense of the women. No bishops used their influence to speak up for women. No priests marched against the Establishment who wanted women humiliated and punished for getting pregnant. There is even a fight against birth control.

Only the feminist witches raised their voices in print and prayers. The feminists put up an intelligent young speaker Ms.Fluke to present the women’s health issues involved. The reaction to her calm presentation was a virulent personal attack. This too was an eye opener for millions of women.

We have consistently spoken out in defense of our rights to our own bodies and souls. Women must have a religion on their own. This spirituality is not centralized, but allowed to flourish in its rich variety.  We must survive and we need to be supported. Without knowing who we are as women, what glorious sacrifices have already been made for us, our self-esteem rises or falls.

We teach you these wonderful achievements, we bring the foremothers to your awareness, we continue to hold the flame for the Women’s Mysteries. This is the religion of her own.

You have the Women’s Spirituality Movement; Goddess centered Women’s Mysteries. For the past 40 years, we have organized Women’s Spirituality events, conferences, festivals, workshops and conducted Women’s Sacred Circles. I was our principal philanthropist. I worked for free for many years, leading the circles, using my own money for down payments to rent our camps for worship. I am now a Crone. Its your turn to foot the bill for this audacious historical enterprise. Step up and be a Hera!

Those who attended paid their way, so we could continue. We need donors, generous angels and a couple of mighty Queens with money to give.

The Goddess is you!

In order to run a non-profit there is a lot of expense involved. We don’t have superpacs. We need more supporters. Education of women and girls through our work is a unique cultural thread. Nobody else is doing this Internationally as we have done. All women benefit when their self-esteem is high. We have changed thousands of live’s for the better.

Through the decades, Women’s Mysteries has been under attack by those who like to trash women. But we stood united, in solidarity and kept the flame of the Women’s Mysteries burning bright. Women must have their own religion. We have to have our own well tended values. Otherwise a male centered religion will take away your constitutional rights from owning your body, your reproductive freedom, and your soul.

Not every woman is dirt poor, I say bless you in whatever help you can lend the Women’s Spirituality Movement. But if you are one of those lucky women who owns or controls wealth, this is your time to rise to the occasion. These are the times we set our future in place in this new century. How bad must things get for our wealthier sisters to open their check book? Only when a personal bad happens, and you suddenly wake up and realize that you are no longer safe either?  Please don’t wait that long. Do it now. On this International Women’s Day. Make a herstorical gift to the Women’s Spirituality Forum.

May abundance come to you and may you fare well in all your affairs. Blessed be.

Zsuzsanna Emese Budapest
High priestess, writer, psychic and revolutionery Crone.